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11 Ways to Survive the Holidays as a Widow

“I am totally not decorating this year!”

That’s what I said the first time I drove past someone’s festively decorated home the year that my husband died.

That first Thanksgiving without my husband was the toughest.  I was not prepared.  I don’t think I could have been.   My brother-in-law and his wife generously offered to make all the food and bring it over to my house.  My boys were home from college and my in-laws wanted to see them.

I provided the wine which I started drinking very early that day.  It was awkward.  We all missed Mike but didn’t know how to approach his absence.  We ate.  We talked about stuff.  Some of us drank a bit too much.  We were together and not alone so that helped.

I remember wanting to just spend the day in my pajamas and order a pizza but I went along with the tradition of having family together.  I cried all weekend.  Grief is hard and the holidays only get worse.

For people dealing with the first holiday season without a loved one, this time of year can be simply awful. After an emotionally draining Thanksgiving with family I attempted to go back to work. I put on a happy face as I walked into my Kindergarten classroom and heard extravagant tales about where the elf on the shelf was found that morning and about the decorations and trees popping up in the homes of my students.

One day, I passed a dad in my neighborhood removing the tree from his roof for his family. Oh, the fun they would have decorating together. I did not feel happy for them. I felt sad for me. My sadness pulled me deeper and deeper until I finally took a leave of absence from work. I needed a change of scenery.

After visiting a therapist I made a plan for the holidays:

For Christmas, I booked a week long cruise to the Caribbean with my 2 sons.  The cruise left from Florida so we also visited my mom, my sister and her family before and after the cruise. A week in the sunshine exploring beaches, pyramids and even swimming with dolphins on Christmas morning was different. Doing something different was my goal and choosing something fun that I could look forward helped keep my mind off my grief.

Widows get a pass that first year so take it if you need it.

As the dates get closer this year I recognize that I may have waves where the grief hits me again.  They still come unexpectedly but I have learned to ride them. I know to let the feelings hit and that I will be OK. 

 Learning to acknowledge my feelings and not always run away from them has been difficult. I love the analogy that my widowed aunt sent me after my husband died.

That the journey through grief is like treading down a road with potholes.  In the beginning, the holes are big and wide.  It seems you may never get out.  Over time, the potholes are still there, but they do get smaller and come along less frequently.

Knowing that waves of sadness or tears will come, and that “this too shall pass” allows me to keep moving forward. Here are some suggestions that have helped me get through grief during the holidays when it is getting tough.

1. Do something different. Life without your loved one is different so don’t pretend you can carry on as you always have. When I finally put up a tree, I changed to all white ornaments. I anticipated that looking at family memory ornaments would be hard, so I didn’t go there in the beginning. Now seven years later, I can comfortably look at them, smile and reminisce about those years when Mike was here and the kids were little, but the first couple of years, it was too hard.

2. Start a gratitude practice.  You’ve heard this before but it is so true. Reframing your mindset to one of gratitude makes a huge difference in your mental and physical health. Set a timer daily to recite 3 random things you are thankful for. You can write them in a journal or in your notepad on the phone or even just say them in your head. After the loss of a loved one it can be easy to focus on all that is missing, so by celebrating 3 small things each day you will begin to appreciate life again.

3. Take a walk outside. Get outside into nature and you will begin to feel more grounded. Use your senses to really be present and hear the sounds, notice what is around you, embrace the change in temperature and colors. As one season ends, it makes room for new beginnings. Turn off the phone and just be outside.

4. Volunteer or buy some food for a food pantry.  Plenty of people are needing support these days. One of the most healing things I did was the time my friend Juliann and I handed out bag lunches to the homeless in New York City. Food pantries need peanut butter, jelly, cereal, soups, applesauce, canned tuna or meats, beans and of course most of all, money.

5. Call a friend or family member.  Maybe they need to hear from you too.  I don’t always  like to make the call. In a world where we can text or email we sometimes forget about actually writing a letter of having a conversation. Once I am on the phone, I love catching up with loved ones.  Make an effort to reach out to someone.

6. Play with a pet. Harry is the best little dog and he makes me laugh. Sometimes I dress him up.  He loves to play fetch or tug of war.  He is quite good at sniffing so taking him outside for a walk is good for both of us. If you don’t have a pet, I bet there is a shelter nearby that would love someone to walk or play with a lonely animal.

Harry the elf

7. Take a nap.  Especially as the days are shorter and colder.  Some days it just feel wonderful to take a midday nap. You are dealing with grief at the holidays and that can be exhausting! Be gentle with yourself and don’t expect so much. Taking a nap is good self-care in my opinion.

8. Go to Costco. This may just be my thing, but I love the openness of the warehouse store.  Browsing at all the cool stuff from TVs to diamonds, sweaters to kitchen appliances, sports equipment, books and Christmas decorations are such a joy to me! Sampling new foods can be interesting and the cooked rotisserie chickens are a deal.

9. Pull some weeds or do yard work.  Leaves are falling and the gardens look pitiful in the North.  A bit of effort makes the yard look better and is a good workout. Now that I live in Florida, this is the time of year to plant annuals to brighten up the gardens since it is no longer so hot outside. Getting your hands in the dirt is a great way to connect with the earth’s electromagnetic energy which leads to benefits with sleep, stress and all sorts of health benefits

10. Read a book.  I have discovered the Kindle and Libby apps on my phone.  With my library membership I can download books to my I-pad and many are available in audible so I listen to them while I walk or exercise.  Finishing the book is important if you want to participate at Book Club. Or, you could purchase a book about grief. Here’s my blog about Grief Books I found helpful: 12 Best Grief Books

11. Listen to music. Do you have an Alexa or Echo in your home? I love that you can now just tell it to play a song. Another fun thing I like to do is find the song on you-tube with the lyrics and sing along. It’s fascinating how many songs I think I know but am surprised to learn the actual words are different than my approximations. Music can put you in a good mood, or even get you started on a good cry. You pick.

Getting through the holidays is tough. You will have some moments when the grief hits you in the face. Sometimes the anticipation of the “special” date, just like the anniversaries, can be more upsetting than the actual date.

Plan a way to remember your loved one. I like to share a story about the ones who are gone, which includes late husband, my parents and my in laws. When other people see you enjoying their memories, maybe they will share some of their own as well.

Light that candle, set that extra place setting at the table, display photos from the past and enjoy and appreciate the love you had.

It’s the most wonderful time of the year, except when it isn’t.

Remember if you know someone who became a widow this year, sending them a care package is a nice way to help them through this tough time. For ideas on what to get them check out my post: I’m here for you – Send a care package to a widow this year.

Thanks for reading my blog and sharing my journey.

Do you have any suggestions for dealing with the holidays when you don’t always feel up to it?


At the age of 51 I unexpectedly became a widow. For the first 6 months after my husband died, I was in shock and numb. I journaled and with the help of friends, family and therapists was able to get back to living my old life, even if it is now very different. Before I was married, I had spent a semester in England and backpacked around Europe. My husband and I moved from New York to California for 8 years and started a family. Travelling took a back seat to raising a family and going to work everyday. Since the loss of my husband I have visited a lot of places with family and friends and took a solo trip to Thailand. I am enjoying sharing my stories and adventures as well as some of my insights to how I am traveling the path of being a widow. I hope to share my stories and adventures as well as some thoughts on being a middle aged widow. While I have some great experiences traveling to Thailand and cruising to Central America, some of my adventures involve a trip to see a Broadway show in nearby Manhattan and a shopping trip at Bed, Bath and Beyond. If I can inspire anyone to go out and continue to live a good life that would be my greatest accomplishment.

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8 Responses

  1. Sheree says:

    Some great practical advice

  2. pedmar10 says:

    Indeed very good. When I lost my wife (2018) , we did nothing we even had to run in Christmas eve to buy some meat with my 3 sons. Nowdays, it goes like normal day no big celebrations we live together so we get to prepare something together. Cheers

  3. I was so touched by your words and would be lost without my husband of 7 years (together for 11). We’re in escrow in our current home and are making the leap north to Spokane, WA area in three weeks. We are both 61 and I ask myself what would happen if he passed. Would I move without him? At this point yes, it would be a mess, but then I could start over and be with his family. It’s weird to think about these things but as we age, and with a pandemic, we should think on these concepts a little more. Blessings to you as you gather with your family at Thanksgiving!

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